I've been mia for a while and the reason is simple. This mom was down for the count.
I'm a stay at home mom, as most of you know and my husband works full time. We balance each other out in so many ways because of this but, there are times where even the most blessed situation turns in to something more closer to a nightmare.
I have had severe stomach issues since march of 2020. It actually goes back further than that, but march seems like a pretty accurate time where I actually took a turn for the worst.
When I get sick, it hits out of no where, and I am ( tmi ) throwing up for a minimum of 3 days and a max of 6. A lot of times I end up in the hospital because I need fluids that I just cannot hold down.
During this time so much goes on. All four kids fall in to place as best as they can and resume any responsibility. However, they also are remote students and its finals week.
When I'm sick, a lot runs through my head. First, I'm devastated. I know once i start, I have days before I can recover, and even recovery is a long process. Then, I feel overwhelmed. I feel like I'm failing my family. Leaving them to fend for themselves and also putting a lot of work on top of my husband who already has so much to do.
Then..lastly.. I feel blessed. Once I start to feel better..I see things a bit more clearly. I see those 3-6 days of torture and realize.. I made it! Again. And.. I have the best family ever.
My pep talk today seemed more like a debbie downer. But I really wanted to stress the importance of coming out the other side of something that really breaks you down. Coming out the other side with a beautiful family waiting for you. thankful for you. Excited to see life back in your eyes.
Tonight I want as many people as I can to take a moment, even if you're in a 'situation' of your own. Close your eyes. See who's there. And allow the love, even if its coming from a small circle.. To get you through.
Being a stay at home parent isn't easy. And we definitely don't get the credit that we deserve. But, in days or weeks like this.. I truly do see that I am so extremely blessed and knowing that makes me feel like I can get through anything.
Hang in there stay at home parents. You're more valued than you know.
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